I'm currently laying in my bed with cramps that make me want to die so I decided to write a blog even though I'll be seeing you guys (except Maddy but you will be there in spirit) soon.
So here's the current update of my life - We recorded our group project for sound image which was nice. Eric was really really nice and did me a giant favor by acting in it. I really don't get along with my director so I felt bad subjecting Eric to him, but it turned out really well (despite some times when I wanted to murder our director). Classes are busy but relaxed for the next week cause of Thanksgiving and such.
I've had some friend stuff going on cause Laura and Hannah haven't been getting along and now Joanna and Hannah aren't getting along and I'm very much the middleman. Laura has been really really homesick and upset for the past few weeks so she changed her flight and went home this morning. Its been so relaxing having the room to myself and not really have to...deal with Laura's moodiness.
As for the other parts of my life...namely the boy part...its been weird. Parker is super...weird and complicated and kind of a dick (actually totally a dick). So I've been sort of hooking up with Jack. I know its really dumb of me but I explained it to Jack. Life is complicated and I can't make any promises but I want to get to know him. I also feel like this is the time in my life where I'm allowed to make stupid decisions, eh?
Anyway it seems everyone's been very much having the end of first semester dilemma where the charm wears off and we're faced with the reality of college. I'm really happy here and I know this is the right place for me but I'm so glad to have a break and see you guys. I miss you and I love you!
Also RIP Four Lokos in New York City :(
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Where Was My Fault in Loving You With My Whole Heart
Heyyy guys! Its almost Thanksgiving so I get to see you soon! Its going to be a really really crowded weekend so we'll see how that goes.
So here's my attempt at keeping you updated on my life...
Classes are going really well. We had casting for my group project on Saturday morning...and one actor showed up...it was really sad...so I have no idea what we're going to be doing with that. Its kind of stressful because my producer has a lot of health issues so she's been in the hospital a lot. Its okay though because she's a great producer.
Monday I went to the Daily Show! My friend Alex had tickets and it was so amazing! Jon Stewart is super attractive and hilarious in real life. He did a Q&A before the show and the guest was the governor of Texas and he went on this rant about respecting other people's opinions and how we shouldn't boo and than on the air he totally ripped the governor apart. It was great. Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday were all just classes and normal stuff. Friday I had class and hung out with friends and later I watched Two Towers and Return of the King with Parker. It was kind of...intensely amazing. I know its really silly to be expressing it in a blog but...gahhh. He's really confusing and complicated but he just...amazes me. Such a great night. (He cried at the end, just btw. It was pretty awesome) I talked to Laura a lot about it the next day because she actually hung out with us for a little bit so she knows sort like...how we interact and I realized I just need to relax and let what happens happen. Like we obviously like each other and I guess if its just once a week we act like a couple and the rest of the days we don't I'll deal with that. We're also perfecting the art of cuddling.
After I was LOTRing I went to Soup and Burger with Hannah which is an 24 hour dinner. Hannah was sort of having a break down about life and a bunch of stuff we ate pie with Eric and talked about life for a really long time. Saturday I went to Soho with Joanna and Hannah but Hannah was still really upset and gloomy. We just sort of hung around for a long time and met up with some people and went to Upstein (which is the cafeteria thats like a food court) and used a ton of extra meal swipes (cause they roll over on Saturday night) and we ate sooooo much food. After that we went to Pizza Box which is a pizza place that doesn't card and they have this really pretty garden patio in the back that's walled in and has pretty lights. So we sat and drank beer and wine and smoked cloves and talked about film and were super artsy and pretentious. But it was really fun getting to know the people better. After that we came back to Rubin and Alex tried to teach me how to ride some weird type of bike in the hallway but it was super complicated...especially drunk. Eventually we bought weed and smoked outside and I had a long talk with a very drunk Tacy/Spencer/Thomas. :)
Sunday I didn't really do anything - tried to thrift but I couldn't find anything I wanted. I was really moody and Laura was getting on my nerves a ton. She's a very stressful person. She's very...self centered and spoiled so it makes it very hard to live with her. A bunch of my friends and I went to see Its Kind of a Funny Story which is very sweet and adorable and I would recommend it. It was stressful going there though cause Laura was in a bad mood and than Eric got in a really bad mood.So overall a super moody weekend. Film kids are too intense sometimes.
Well anyways I really miss you guys and I love you and I can't wait for Thanksgiving!
So here's my attempt at keeping you updated on my life...
Classes are going really well. We had casting for my group project on Saturday morning...and one actor showed up...it was really sad...so I have no idea what we're going to be doing with that. Its kind of stressful because my producer has a lot of health issues so she's been in the hospital a lot. Its okay though because she's a great producer.
Monday I went to the Daily Show! My friend Alex had tickets and it was so amazing! Jon Stewart is super attractive and hilarious in real life. He did a Q&A before the show and the guest was the governor of Texas and he went on this rant about respecting other people's opinions and how we shouldn't boo and than on the air he totally ripped the governor apart. It was great. Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday were all just classes and normal stuff. Friday I had class and hung out with friends and later I watched Two Towers and Return of the King with Parker. It was kind of...intensely amazing. I know its really silly to be expressing it in a blog but...gahhh. He's really confusing and complicated but he just...amazes me. Such a great night. (He cried at the end, just btw. It was pretty awesome) I talked to Laura a lot about it the next day because she actually hung out with us for a little bit so she knows sort like...how we interact and I realized I just need to relax and let what happens happen. Like we obviously like each other and I guess if its just once a week we act like a couple and the rest of the days we don't I'll deal with that. We're also perfecting the art of cuddling.
After I was LOTRing I went to Soup and Burger with Hannah which is an 24 hour dinner. Hannah was sort of having a break down about life and a bunch of stuff we ate pie with Eric and talked about life for a really long time. Saturday I went to Soho with Joanna and Hannah but Hannah was still really upset and gloomy. We just sort of hung around for a long time and met up with some people and went to Upstein (which is the cafeteria thats like a food court) and used a ton of extra meal swipes (cause they roll over on Saturday night) and we ate sooooo much food. After that we went to Pizza Box which is a pizza place that doesn't card and they have this really pretty garden patio in the back that's walled in and has pretty lights. So we sat and drank beer and wine and smoked cloves and talked about film and were super artsy and pretentious. But it was really fun getting to know the people better. After that we came back to Rubin and Alex tried to teach me how to ride some weird type of bike in the hallway but it was super complicated...especially drunk. Eventually we bought weed and smoked outside and I had a long talk with a very drunk Tacy/Spencer/Thomas. :)
Sunday I didn't really do anything - tried to thrift but I couldn't find anything I wanted. I was really moody and Laura was getting on my nerves a ton. She's a very stressful person. She's very...self centered and spoiled so it makes it very hard to live with her. A bunch of my friends and I went to see Its Kind of a Funny Story which is very sweet and adorable and I would recommend it. It was stressful going there though cause Laura was in a bad mood and than Eric got in a really bad mood.So overall a super moody weekend. Film kids are too intense sometimes.
Well anyways I really miss you guys and I love you and I can't wait for Thanksgiving!
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Pumping Someone Else's Blood
This is how it works
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath
No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Pumping someone else's blood
I don't know why but I've been listening to this song on repeat a ton and something about the lyrics is how I feel right now.
So here's my weekly update - I'm working on a big group project for Sound Image. We're using real actors and casting and everything. It's so exciting. My script went over well in class - Barbara said my writing was very honest, but I have a few more things to change. I need to write another script for this week too so I guess I'm really preparing for the rest of my life. Laura's been out of town this weekend which has actually been sort of lonely - its so weird getting used to waking up to someone everyday.
Today we're having a shindig or something because Laura's gone so we can party in my room and last night I attempted to conquer all of the extended Lord of the Rings with Parker. We made it through most of Two Towers but we both fell asleep. It was insanely fun. We just snuggled and talked about the movies and...kissed...a lot...He also told me his life's goal is to move to New Zealand and build a hobbit hole. HOW AWESOME IS THAT!?
Other than that this week's been pretty uneventful so I'm just going to ramble for a little bit.
In Writing the Essay we were talking about our ideas for papers and my professor just randomly sort of stated: To love someone for their faults, not in spite of them. Its weirdly out of context, but its such a beautiful thing to say and I keep mulling it over in my mind. What a perfect way to explain love. My hats off to you, Mike Tyrell. Who is also super sexy, just so you know.
College has been sort of overwhelming. I love it but I could really use a weekend at home doing nothing other than sitting around which is why Thanksgiving is going to be so much fun. I miss you guys and I'm so excited to see you (and go black friday shopping! and eat pie! and see nature! and buy cheese that isn't like a thousand dollars!)
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't
You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath
No, this is how it works
You peer inside yourself
You take the things you like
And try to love the things you took
And then you take that love you made
And stick it into some
Someone else's heart
Pumping someone else's blood
I don't know why but I've been listening to this song on repeat a ton and something about the lyrics is how I feel right now.
So here's my weekly update - I'm working on a big group project for Sound Image. We're using real actors and casting and everything. It's so exciting. My script went over well in class - Barbara said my writing was very honest, but I have a few more things to change. I need to write another script for this week too so I guess I'm really preparing for the rest of my life. Laura's been out of town this weekend which has actually been sort of lonely - its so weird getting used to waking up to someone everyday.
Today we're having a shindig or something because Laura's gone so we can party in my room and last night I attempted to conquer all of the extended Lord of the Rings with Parker. We made it through most of Two Towers but we both fell asleep. It was insanely fun. We just snuggled and talked about the movies and...kissed...a lot...He also told me his life's goal is to move to New Zealand and build a hobbit hole. HOW AWESOME IS THAT!?
Other than that this week's been pretty uneventful so I'm just going to ramble for a little bit.
In Writing the Essay we were talking about our ideas for papers and my professor just randomly sort of stated: To love someone for their faults, not in spite of them. Its weirdly out of context, but its such a beautiful thing to say and I keep mulling it over in my mind. What a perfect way to explain love. My hats off to you, Mike Tyrell. Who is also super sexy, just so you know.
College has been sort of overwhelming. I love it but I could really use a weekend at home doing nothing other than sitting around which is why Thanksgiving is going to be so much fun. I miss you guys and I'm so excited to see you (and go black friday shopping! and eat pie! and see nature! and buy cheese that isn't like a thousand dollars!)
Monday, November 1, 2010
Halloweekend, Frank, Mint Tea, Stephen Colbert, Carrie
Hey guys!
I'm trying to keep tabs on my weeks by blogging.
Sooo here's my week:
Classes are going well - a lot of work is starting to pile up, and its becoming a little bit less glamorous and exciting but I still love it here. Its just a more subtle love instead of OH MY GOD THIS IS SO AWESOME ALL THE TIME. I love Sound Image class - we are doing a group project right now and we have to have a producer, writer, editor and director and I'm the writer. Its really exciting to be acknowledged as a writer and I'm so incredibly excited to cast the project and have all these other talented people take my words and add their own talent and flare. The more I do the more I realize I really want to write screenplays and work with a director that I really trust. I love hearing my words come to life. ^.^
I'm getting sort of sad about the semester ending because I really like my classes right now and I don't want to leave my sound professor Barbara. :( I'm also sort of apprehensive about winter break. I really miss you guys and I'm really looking forward to a nice long sit on my couch and a snuggle with Garbo, but its going to be so weird having all this time with nothing to do and having to go back to work at Family Video and everything. Sort of like picking up the pieces for a month randomly, eh?
Thursday I had classes all day and after we decided to have a zombie fest in honor of Halloween. A bunch of people came over and Eric was like "heyyy can Parker come?"
Just as a plot recap - I was really into Parker at the beginning of the year but at a party he told Eric he wasn't interested or SOMETHING. I don't really know - Eric hasn't told me what he said except Parker apparently doesn't hook up with girls at parties because he doesn't get drunk and doesn't want to take advantage of anyone. So anyway I'm always really uncomfortable around him because I was embarrassed and he generally just sort of ignores me when I'm around OR he pays a lot of attention to me. Its odd. But essentially we were at the level where we didn't really even acknowledge each other on the street or anything.
Back to the scene - I almost told Eric not to invite him but I was like EH whatever he can come. He showed up and he was being so nice to me and I was like uh WTF. So we all got together and started to watch the original Night of the Living Dead but it was actually super boring so we decided to watch Carrie in honor of Halloween. As I get scared easily I announced to the room that I needed someone to protect me and I was totally kidding but Parker from across the room says "I WILL" and gets up and squeeeeezes on my bed next to me. This leads to like two hours of Carrie-induced cuddling. We talked through the whole movie and the next day I asked him if he wanted to watch Donnie Darko and he said yeah soon...and by soon he meant in an hour.
We ended up watching Donnie Darko and talking the whole time and just cuddling on my bed. It was really nice - and really innocent. He kissed me on the shoulder. :) When he was leaving we kissed and it was pretty delightful and than I went back to life and was super confused. Later that night we all sort of met up for Halloween festivities and we tried to go to this party in Brooklyn but it got shut down by the time we got there and Julianne and I ended up getting left in BK which was terrifying because we had consumed a lot of 4 Lokos but WE GOT HOME and we weren't dead so that was great. The next night we had equally unsatisfying party experiences and I ended up just coming back to my room and moping around a bit. Laura, Aaron and Laura's friends from home bought me a cupcake and had a candle and sang me Happy Birthday really late at night though which was very sweet.
Sunday I just sort of lounged around - I was sort of in a bad mood, because my birthday always puts me in a bad mood, honestly. I always have a lot of expectations and they always fail. Plus Laura was in a really bad mood and she was being really mean (not to me, just to Hannah and stuff). I ended up cuddling with Eric (not in a romantic way at all, I promise, that's just the nature of our friendship) and talking and watching Up. We went out to dinner for my birthday which was really sweet of my friends but we ended up squabbling a lot. Eric and I ended up walking around the parade in the village by ourselves which was really fun. Halloween is suuuch a big deal here. The streets were closed down because of the huge amount of people out in the streets and we saw some really cool costumes (Kickass, Dr Horrible, Double Rainbow, etc, etc).
Today Eric's friend had tickets to the Daily Show so we rushed there after class but we were too late and we got cut (but apparently we're getting VIP tickets for another show because we were cut) so we decided on a whim to walk over to the Colbert Report and see if we could get in on stand by and we did which was so awesome. The show was really short - they film so quickly, but it was really fun. Colbert looks really different in real life (sort of wider). It was a really fun night and Eric and Alex are both really fun. After that we rannnnn to the plenary session we had that night (which is like lectures we have with all the freshman in Tisch that are required for our writing the essay class and they're on random Monday nights) and Alex ended up giving me a piggyback ride through the streets of New York and we finally got there and ran into our professor and pretended we had been there the whole time.
So that's what's been up with me recently.
Btw, I'm sorry if I tend to just talk about relationships. I'm sort of boy crazy, which I'm very willing to admit and being here is just opening my eyes to the amount of amazing people in the world. Everyone I meet I like, which is something I've never felt before. All the people I get to know I love talking to. Just imagine you went to a school where all of a sudden everyone had the same taste as you and the same interests (as well as being interesting and attractive) and you had just gotten out of a very confusing longterm relationship and you were SO GLAD to be single. I know I seem really fickle but its really nice to be single finally and just embracing life as it comes.
I love you guys and I miss you!
I'm trying to keep tabs on my weeks by blogging.
Sooo here's my week:
Classes are going well - a lot of work is starting to pile up, and its becoming a little bit less glamorous and exciting but I still love it here. Its just a more subtle love instead of OH MY GOD THIS IS SO AWESOME ALL THE TIME. I love Sound Image class - we are doing a group project right now and we have to have a producer, writer, editor and director and I'm the writer. Its really exciting to be acknowledged as a writer and I'm so incredibly excited to cast the project and have all these other talented people take my words and add their own talent and flare. The more I do the more I realize I really want to write screenplays and work with a director that I really trust. I love hearing my words come to life. ^.^
I'm getting sort of sad about the semester ending because I really like my classes right now and I don't want to leave my sound professor Barbara. :( I'm also sort of apprehensive about winter break. I really miss you guys and I'm really looking forward to a nice long sit on my couch and a snuggle with Garbo, but its going to be so weird having all this time with nothing to do and having to go back to work at Family Video and everything. Sort of like picking up the pieces for a month randomly, eh?
Thursday I had classes all day and after we decided to have a zombie fest in honor of Halloween. A bunch of people came over and Eric was like "heyyy can Parker come?"
Just as a plot recap - I was really into Parker at the beginning of the year but at a party he told Eric he wasn't interested or SOMETHING. I don't really know - Eric hasn't told me what he said except Parker apparently doesn't hook up with girls at parties because he doesn't get drunk and doesn't want to take advantage of anyone. So anyway I'm always really uncomfortable around him because I was embarrassed and he generally just sort of ignores me when I'm around OR he pays a lot of attention to me. Its odd. But essentially we were at the level where we didn't really even acknowledge each other on the street or anything.
Back to the scene - I almost told Eric not to invite him but I was like EH whatever he can come. He showed up and he was being so nice to me and I was like uh WTF. So we all got together and started to watch the original Night of the Living Dead but it was actually super boring so we decided to watch Carrie in honor of Halloween. As I get scared easily I announced to the room that I needed someone to protect me and I was totally kidding but Parker from across the room says "I WILL" and gets up and squeeeeezes on my bed next to me. This leads to like two hours of Carrie-induced cuddling. We talked through the whole movie and the next day I asked him if he wanted to watch Donnie Darko and he said yeah soon...and by soon he meant in an hour.
We ended up watching Donnie Darko and talking the whole time and just cuddling on my bed. It was really nice - and really innocent. He kissed me on the shoulder. :) When he was leaving we kissed and it was pretty delightful and than I went back to life and was super confused. Later that night we all sort of met up for Halloween festivities and we tried to go to this party in Brooklyn but it got shut down by the time we got there and Julianne and I ended up getting left in BK which was terrifying because we had consumed a lot of 4 Lokos but WE GOT HOME and we weren't dead so that was great. The next night we had equally unsatisfying party experiences and I ended up just coming back to my room and moping around a bit. Laura, Aaron and Laura's friends from home bought me a cupcake and had a candle and sang me Happy Birthday really late at night though which was very sweet.
Sunday I just sort of lounged around - I was sort of in a bad mood, because my birthday always puts me in a bad mood, honestly. I always have a lot of expectations and they always fail. Plus Laura was in a really bad mood and she was being really mean (not to me, just to Hannah and stuff). I ended up cuddling with Eric (not in a romantic way at all, I promise, that's just the nature of our friendship) and talking and watching Up. We went out to dinner for my birthday which was really sweet of my friends but we ended up squabbling a lot. Eric and I ended up walking around the parade in the village by ourselves which was really fun. Halloween is suuuch a big deal here. The streets were closed down because of the huge amount of people out in the streets and we saw some really cool costumes (Kickass, Dr Horrible, Double Rainbow, etc, etc).
Today Eric's friend had tickets to the Daily Show so we rushed there after class but we were too late and we got cut (but apparently we're getting VIP tickets for another show because we were cut) so we decided on a whim to walk over to the Colbert Report and see if we could get in on stand by and we did which was so awesome. The show was really short - they film so quickly, but it was really fun. Colbert looks really different in real life (sort of wider). It was a really fun night and Eric and Alex are both really fun. After that we rannnnn to the plenary session we had that night (which is like lectures we have with all the freshman in Tisch that are required for our writing the essay class and they're on random Monday nights) and Alex ended up giving me a piggyback ride through the streets of New York and we finally got there and ran into our professor and pretended we had been there the whole time.
So that's what's been up with me recently.
Btw, I'm sorry if I tend to just talk about relationships. I'm sort of boy crazy, which I'm very willing to admit and being here is just opening my eyes to the amount of amazing people in the world. Everyone I meet I like, which is something I've never felt before. All the people I get to know I love talking to. Just imagine you went to a school where all of a sudden everyone had the same taste as you and the same interests (as well as being interesting and attractive) and you had just gotten out of a very confusing longterm relationship and you were SO GLAD to be single. I know I seem really fickle but its really nice to be single finally and just embracing life as it comes.
I love you guys and I miss you!
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